I am sitting here at home, trying to feel connected to some part of my normal routine. I have spent the majority of the last five days sitting at the hospital.
My father had open heart surgery on Wednesday to replace a valve and take care of a bypass. He recently took some actions to get back to a doctor and into better health (which I am so thankful for). We found out a couple weeks ago about the valve replacement, but within a day of his angiogram, surgery had been scheduled. It all happened very fast.
The day before surgery, I needed something to make me happy. What does that equate with me? Yarn shopping. Bought this rainbow Kauni to make the Northern Lights Shawl.
After 5 days, I am almost done. I keep referring to this as "Dad's Shawl" (although he won't be the one wearing it!). He really likes the colors.
Things are progressing with Dad, but there is concern over a irregular heart rate and high blood sugar.
I am struggling with it all. I have been there during the day, talking with all the nurses/doctors that come in (he is very tired after everything - very understandable) and just "being" there for whatever he needs. Also been a companion for my mom.
I have always enjoyed knitting, but never realized how helpful it could be to me. I can literally sit there for hours and just quietly knit. It keeps my hands busy (to stop the fidgeting) and keeps my mind occupied (to help control the worrying). It has been such a joy and comfort to me during these past few days.
This may sound corny, but I feel that I am knitting my prayers, hopes, fears, worries and love for my Dad into this shawl. Then I see the beautiful colors that emerge and it makes me happy and reminds me that we will get through this and he WILL be better soon.
8 comments:
Oh, Lisa! I'm so sorry that you and your family are going thru this.
I'm glad your father is doing well and he'll get a little stronger every day. It's nice that you're at his side and you're probably distracting him with those beautiful yarn colors.
Thank goodness for knitting!
HUGS to you and yours!!!
So glad to hear the surgery is over and your father is recovering. What a lot of worry. Your shawl is so beautiful. It positively radiates love.
Wow, that is a lot to handle. I'm thinking positive thoughts for your dad...
I actually decided to learn to knit when my father in law was in the hospital a lot, and we were doing more or less what you're doing. I know it helped me tremendously!
The shawl is a great idea - such bright, beautiful colors :)
The shawl is beautiful!!
Huge hugs and positive vibes for you and your family!
Lisa, I hope your father continues to recover and lives a long and healthy life.
Diana
Dropping in to check on you - sorry to hear you and your family are going thru so much right now. Sending my best wishes, hugs, vibes your father's way. My mother went thru that about 10 years ago and is much stronger & healthier now. But it was such a scary thing for everyone to go thru. I'm here if you need anything - really.
The shawl is lovely and a perfect mind distraction that you most def need right now. Big hugs your way.
I hope he does get better soon and I'm glad you found something that comforts you in such a potentially stressful situation. You and your dad are in my thoughts.
You are such a strong woman. Just being 'there' for your father, I'm sure, means the world to him. My thoughts are with you both. That shawl will be GORGEOUS. May it remind you of your love for your father!
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